It’s been 4 months since my love passed away. Four months of unimaginable grief, heartache, and loneliness. It’s amazing how you don’t realize how much you love or need someone until they are gone. It’s amazing how much time I actually spent talking and hanging out with him. I know this now because I’m usually by myself ALL the time. People say ” it will get easier” or “give it time.” Well 4 months later and honestly it’s not really any easier. I’ve still cried every day for 120 days. Every single day something happens and I miss him. Whether its an accomplishment that I can’t share with him, a song that comes on the radio that brings back a memory, or just a phone call to him I can’t make anymore.
I know that it will get easier eventually, not quite sure when eventually is. Is it 6 months? Is it a year? I’m not quite sure but I know that it’s been 4 months and it still sucks. My heart still aches every day for my sweetheart that’s not here anymore.
I can’t wait to the day I can see him again. Just wish I didn’t even have to think about it that way. I just wish he had never left!
Four months have passed but no one has told my heart that. I don’t know when it will figure it out. Hopefully soon! 😦
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